today...syam came lo..with his family. was interesting lo, considering i haven't seen syam for quite some time. he's happy in his college, unexpectedly! haha. he neva skips class n he lurves his assignments. so it's gud learning something u enjoy...wonder why can't my mom see that..she should know by now how i love writing and drawing, not chemistry..i hope i won't go thru what syam did.
well, now currently my mom, syam's mom, my sis, n Kak Mah is in Giant..i wanted to follow. after all, i haven't been outside from my house to shop for abt 2 weeks ledi. why can't i have a break from all thsi?!? it's not fair, each and every time sis gets to go out, but not me. i cried cause i was too sad. i can't help it. it might be selfish for me, but well, can't a girl go out if she wants to at times? i haven't been keeping track of my supplies and i'm scared if they'll run short. i can't even buy anything for myself anymore! life's not fair at times...and they say i'm always happy...why can't they see that i'm sad inside? why can't they understand me? my feelings? oh well, no one will know anyway, i'll just store them inside me and carry the burden all by myself.